Last night at 2:30 am, Bella whimpered in hunger. Her whimper can quickly turn into a loud cry if you don't get to her fast enough, so I tried to move quickly, but I ended up trudging out of bed. I hate waking up between midnight and 3 am! I ignored my own need to go to the bathroom, picked her up, returned to bed with the boppy and got settled. She started nursing. I sat with my eyes closed, wished the urge to pee would just go away. I also wished she could wait until 3:30 or 4 am because I don't mind being awake then. Nighttime nursing is incredibly boring. Bella doesn't even open her eyes for it.
Before long, she tooted and grunted indicating that her diaper was full. "Damn!" I thought. Now I'm going to have to change her diaper and probably change her pajamas because of a leak or blow-out. Then she's going to really wake up and I'm going to have to walk around to make her fall asleep again. Ahhh! I'm going to be up to 4 am and then I'll have a hard time falling back to sleep. As I was thinking all these things, I looked down to see her hand in front of her chest. Her index, pinky and thumb were up, middle and ring finger down. It was in the shape of the sign I LOVE YOU! It was the sweetest thing she could have done. It's like she was saying, "Sorry mom, I don't mean to wake you up. I love you for caring for me." It made it all okay and fortunately, she didn't have a blow-out so no need to change pajamas. She burped easily and fell asleep quickly so all was good. I fell asleep quickly too.
I'm sure that there's some explanation for her fingers bending into that shape; some reflex or something. Whatever it was I was thankful. She's beginning to respond and give back. She calms when I hold her (mostly), she looks at me and she smiles at me. I love when she does this! She belongs to me!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
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2 comments:
Told you it was wonderful!
And it just keeps getting better:)
Eva always had a way of waiting until I was on the edge... and then pull me back with the sweetest things.
BTW... if done carefully... it is possible to carry the boppy (child and all) to the potty. Not the easiest thing I have ever done but definitely possible.
Send your address up there to me through email... I have something to send you.
Much Love,
~k
That brought tears to my eyes! It does just keep getting better and better! I hope you are having a relaxing time and even though I am super far away from you I feel like you are even farther now that you are out of town. Call me when you can and give Bella kisses!
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